Ray-chan

stupid laggy computer.

Yeah, here's the Works Cited from my 'homo sapiens' piece:

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hmm format got all wonky when i copy pasted... oh well XD;;

i suppose i could add a bit of what the collage means here in reference to the poem:


- 'Reason' into the middle of the brain, because that's where reason comes from, and that's what we work (or used to work) around and base everything on. There's a skull with crossbones above it, because as Wilmot stated, reason is a dangerous thing that leads to our demise.
- It's nearly impossible to separate the images (smashed cars, flying planes, technical designs, equations, skyscrapers, fires, explosions, and tanks) that are piled inside the brain, but the main focus is the engine (in Wilmot's poem, he called man a 'reasoning engine').
- Road of guns leads down the neck into a dark sea crashing against a cliff. This reflects what the poem says about man's falling into doubt and drowning in it; the cliff represents a steep fall, and the black waters represent endless doubt.
- Added a clutter of books to represent how man tries to get out of his doubt by studying and trying to gain more knowledge. Flames lick along their pages, to show how knowledge won't save us.
- Explosions inside the mind shows how we overwork our brains. A train involved in one of the worst train wrecks in history comes out of the forehead, to remind us what we are capable of.
- A physics equation in a circle stands for the 'sun', the 'light' that shines (or doesn't shine) on the life of mankind.
- The background is a mixture of destruction, including shredded buildings, gas warfare of WWI, the terrorism of the Twin Towers, train wrecks, and atomic bombs.
- Something that reflects more of our current era in technology is the skyscrapers. Lately, the world has been in a heated competition for building the tallest skyscraper... Tower of Babel much?
- Some of the world's tallest structures protrude out of the brain, and the world's soon-to-be-complete tallest building, the Burj Dubai (built in Dubai and to be completed in 2009, standing from somewhere around 800–1000m), stands proudly in the background.
- Last but not least is the sepia-colored newspaper overtone, which explains the modernistic past, and the words that we read, think, and speak.
- Everything looks dead, or is the cause of death; even the eyes of the person are lifeless. To show the ultimate death of Homo sapiens, I backed the human profile with a skull profile – in this material world, that's all we'll ever be when we pass.

it's a very post-modern poem, and i did my response accordingly.   
plus, it's a general thing, i think.. IMO, technology isn't all.. that... bad... XD;;;;;; ..as long as we don't get caught up in ourselves trying to figure out how to do everything on our own, i'm cool. XD



hmm...
so much to do.. so little time. why do i still procrastinate? stupid.
it seems this is all i ever say.. lol XD

How long was it since I updated? o_O;; (as in, actual art, not sketches)

As much as I want to CG my pics, the majority are still left as mere pencil art =3=;; buu
I wish I had more patience, skill, AND a bigger attention span... TDT!!

Still have to check 1,970 deviations/messages (I should really cut down on my devwatch) O_O; wish me luck. Ugh.

AND!

a special hello to Miru since I HARDLY EVER SEE YOU (in more literal terms, TYPE TO YOU) ANYMOREEEEEE

oh yeah. Host Club (anime), in my opinion, had a bad, rushed ending. =_=; what a disappointment.

AND I LOVE BLEACH.
RENJIxRUKIA FOREVER.








... FOREVER, YOU HEAR?! XDXDXD


And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY TODAYYY~

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jeens' chara pic
miru's manga/minesweeper pic
uzu-nee's itachi pic, large group pic(one assigned to me like...years ago XD)
reenie's kh2 sora pic
lucy(Jun)'s pic
LUCY(KIM)'S PIC
Eun-tae's pic
austin's pic
daniel's pic
led by an angel CG
....what else.....
oh yea. something for fun. : D

.. and sleep! XD YEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS SLEEEEEEP




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OMG I LOVE THIS THING XDXDXD
i actually read the manga and watched the anime since the earlier days of this series, all thanks to !!! no, seriously, thanks for introducing me to the wonders of Host Club. =3=b!!

and.... and as much as i love all the main characters, more specifically Mori-senpai and Hikaru and Kaoru...

<rant>
BUT OMG I LOVE NEKOZAWA-SENPAI SO MUCH T_________________T not really when he's wearing his gloomy robe, BUT!! WITH IT OFF, HE'S SO..... SO...
NEKOZAWA-SENPAI.
AAH.
I WILL GO FAWN OVER THE NUMEROUS SCREENSHOTS I TOOK OF HIM NOW. *3*;;;
I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY LOVE HIM BETTER THAN MORI?! how is that possible O_O
OMG I WILL DRAW A CRAPLOAD OF SKETCHES OF HIM.
NATURALLY BLONDE AND BLUE-EYED. D:
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EDIT 2:

OMG. THAT IS THE SECOND HUGE BUG THAT FLEW FROM THE LIGHT AND HIT SOMETHING HARD AND FELL TO THE FLOOR/SOME SURFACE (desk) IN 24 HOURS.
WHAT.
THE.
FRIG.
AND BOTH I KEELED WITH A BUTTLOAD OF DOMESTIC SPRAY CRAP.
I'M WASTING IT.
JUST FOR TWO LITTLE (BIG, ACTUALLY) BUGS.
WHAT.
IS.
MY.
PROBLEM.

NO!
WHAT IS THE BUG'S PROBLEM?! BOTH THEIR PROBLEMS?! CAN'T THEY SEE THAT I'M ONLINE DOING SOMETHING RIGHT NOW?! DON'T THEY KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO SEE THEIR UGLY BODIES CRAWLING WITHIN 100 METRES RANGE OF MY LOCATION?! ARE THEY STUPID?! DON'T THEY KNOW THEY WILL DIE MERCILESSLY IF ENCOUNTERED BY RAY-CHAN THE BUG-KILLER (phobic)?!?!?!

it better have died down there. and my computer stuff better not be ruined by the spray.
otherwise i WILL crush it. big bug or not. crunchy sounds or not. i WILL make sure it DIES!!!!!!!! D<

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWw.
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FIFA WORLD CUP 2006?!?!?!
GO <whoever wins T3Tlll>

EDIT:// oh, and i'm 8% girly. ain't that cool? i took a quiz off of -sama's journal and THIS WAS MY RESULT!
i would have been 6%, but i had to check off that my closet was stock full of clothes because of my mother and random hand-me-downs, and also that i've never had a real job b/c i'm young (not really) and i suck with business/job type stuff.
therefore i literally have no future.
HOW WILL I MAKE MONEY?! =_=;;

*plans to live with friends when older* LAWL. D:


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jeens' chara pic
miru's manga/minesweeper pic
uzu-nee's itachi pic, large group pic(one assigned to me like...years ago XD), and probably 100 other pics
reenie's kh2 sora pic
naomi's pic
led by an angel CG
....what else.....
oh yea. something for fun. : D

.. and sleep! XD YEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS SLEEEEEEP




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"Be very careful, then, how you live - not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is."
-Ephesians 5: 15-17

i feel like i've been falling for a while now. =T
I need to talk to John JDSN about the '_______ are Meaningless' chapters in Ecclesiastes too...
and Proverbs 2:1-6 i must keep close to my heart.

This CAN be harder than taking an exam. Uzu-nee, do you know what I mean?

and the reason why I feel half-empty is because i am lacking the most important thing in my life right now D: aw, dangnabbit.


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jeens' chara pic
miru's manga/minesweeper pic
uzu-nee's itachi pic, large group pic(one assigned to me like...years ago XD), and probably 100 other pics
reenie's kh2 sora pic
naomi's pic
led by an angel CG
....what else.....
oh yea. something for fun. : D

.. and sleep! XD YEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS SLEEEEEEP




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high on a hilltop and touching the sky
everyone has their own magical something~
something you can fly--
(song//END)

well,
i'm bored.
and i don't want to start my english homework when it's already past 10 pm. i should be in bed right now (TO GROWWWW TO GROW) T_T

and UGH, my house is INFESTED with TINY TINY TINY RED ANTS, AND THEY CRAWL EVERYWHERE, WE JUST CAN'T SEE THEM RIGHT AWAY, AND I ALREADY KILLED TONS, AND I KILLED ONE ON MY HAND TODAY, AND SOMETIMES MY HAIR GETS A BIT ITCHY AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S FROM THOSE STUPID ANTS OR NOT, AND I JUST FEEL REALLY WEIRD RIGHT NOW, AND I WANT TO BE PRODUCTIVE BUT I CAN'T.
wuttaheck.

i feel..
half-empty.
haha, emo. >D jks.

but it's true >: and i want to CG really really badly, but it's just not coming along right. i know for sure it's my lack of skill in art. DAH. i suck at realism and backgrounds and shading and folds and lighting and landscapes and buildings and EVERYTHING.

i've been reading a lot lately. i don't feel like going on the computer much anymore (been off my own computer for at least two weeks now), but today i FINALLY got my computer hooked up again *sigh*. my dad needed my monitor to fix our neighbour's comp. 8D so i let him. it helped my addiction to the internet, though. now i have renewed my addiction to being a nerd and reading. ohdears.

PLEASE DON'T TELL ME WE HAVE EXAMS IN A MONTH PLEASE DON'T PLEASEEE
and please don't tell me i'm already almost done grade n_ _ _ please no please no please no T_T i don't want to grow up, please +_+


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jeens' chara pic
miru's manga/minesweeper pic
uzu-nee's itachi pic, large group pic(one assigned to me like...years ago XD), and probably 100 other pics
reenie's kh2 sora pic
naomi's pic
led by an angel CG
....what else.....
oh yea. something for fun. : D

.. and sleep! XD YEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS SLEEEEEEP




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CLUBS